Category Archives: It’s a Mom Kinda Day
So Little Patch is now 16 months old and starting to walk around and doing his own thing at home. He’s pretty good with playing by himself (he’s surrounded by me, patch and grandparents at all times, but we don’t really engage in games with him all the time) and if he wants our attention, he would come over and do something cute like pat our back or put his head on our legs.
But recently, he learned something new. Doing what we don’t want like touching or TV. Or turning knobs on our stereos. We try to be stern and let him know we don’t like it with words like ‘Don’t touch’ or ‘Too close to the TV’ (although since both his parents are blind bats, it’s inevitable that he would be donning his first pair of glasses soon). Well, tonight when daddy’s out, those same words somehow meant the opposite to him.
Maybe it’s his way of playing or getting my attention, but after 5 times of telling him not to touch the TV, he ran back and pushed the screen that it almost toppled over. Quite a douchey move. I was not happy. So I took the hand that pushed the TV, told him again, ‘Don’t push the TV, you’ll hurt yourself’. He didn’t get it. So I opened his palm and slapped it. Not too hard but it wasn’t gentle either. He knew I meant business.
He looked at me and stared at me hard. Then he turned away in a way that showed he didn’t want to look at me. So I just stared back wondering what he was feeling. Then he broke free of my grip and ran to the gate by the stairs. He just stared down the stairs and I knew that he was looking/waiting for daddy. I called his name and he looked at me but it wasn’t with love. He was upset at me. He had the look of holding back his tears because his lips were quivering. He turned back to continue staring down the stairs. Then I walked over and called his name again and he turned around and ran towards me crying. I felt relieved thinking he wanted me to comfort the pain that I caused. Except that he ran past me. And the pain I felt was more than his.
Just like his dad, I realized that he’s got pride. He didn’t want me to see him cry when I slapped his palm. He didn’t want to show fear or pain. Instead, he held it in as long as he could until he couldn’t hold it anymore.
By now, I’ve already forgotten what had happened 10 minutes before. Instead, I held him in my arms and kept kissing the palm and telling him ‘Mommy loves you’. He was fine and continued playing and trying to touch the TV. And I continued with my half-ass ‘Don’t touch’ warnings.
This is my first attempt at disciplining my son. After Patch got home, I told him what happened and he told me I shouldn’t have slapped his hand. He was probably right and I feel like I failed somehow because I did it the wrong way and it surely didn’t feel like Little Patch learned his lesson. Except to make me feel resented.
Finally, I am experiencing my first steps in parenting.
I don’t go shopping frequently (except when I’m vacationing) but with a baby now, it’s even more rare that I go to a mall. So this is where the internet saves the day. I love to computer-screen shop. Forever 21 is one of my favourite online shops to browse mainly because they have to many items offered at such a cheap price. That though comes at the cost of the quality as well. Tonight I bought some accessories that I can wear to work or even at home when I want to feel dressed up in sweats and a hoodie. Their accessories also make decent gifts (well, if you have friends that think F21 accessories are too cheap for them, they probably don’t deserve a gift from you!).
I find that a lot of the earrings from F21 are pretty big so you have to look at the additional photos as they would have an image of the earrings next to a ruler or read the description. They carry hundreds of earrings so you’ll need to spend some time to go through them.
I didn’t end up getting every thing I liked because I don’t think I’ll make use of the pieces but I think that’s are great as play jewellery and it’s not as painful if you lose it or break it.
Little Patch was up for most of the night due to teething, constipation and having his shots done recently. He was NOT a happy baby. We did almost everything we could to calm him but he was just agitated and angry. The only thing that calmed him was by nursing him but the minute I pulled away, he would start crying and my back was starting to ache.
By 5am, he calmed down and went to sleep after we gave him a shot of whiskey. That is, if whiskey comes in the form of infant Tylenol in a dropper.
I can’t stop watching YO GABBA GABBA‘s videos on Youtube. It’s so fun and the tunes are so addictive. Here is one of my favourite clips, it makes me want to throw down cardboard and host a baby dance off.
Special Guest – DO IT… go go go Do It! go go go Do It! Hilarious.
I don’t know what it is about Baby Einstein clips that are award winning, but their shows put me to sleep!